240917

总是告诉自己
想多了就难过了 看多了就难过了

她说 “珍惜”
原来 你不

她说 ”你会“
我想 真的会

看着你 总是害怕失去你
心里总是在想 这个男人 我真的好爱
at the same time
it hurts me more
the one i love the most hurt me most
u know everything but u still do nothing

i never ask much
i just wanted your attention

she is right
u used to have me and knew that i wont leave

but baby
i would leave one day
so please dont made me tired
please

080917

it's been a long time
since last time i cannot
in fact , there are a lot of times i cannot handle it
but i forgot here
somewhere i can release myself
it's been so hard for me lately
oh ya , i had a boyfriend
but things don't get well
i mean me myself
yes it is at the beginning
but slowly , time comes
it doesn't same as how it used to be
action is far difference with promised
i compromised i was tired ,
i cared i hurt
i learned i shouldnt care
ya i shouldn't
if i did , i wont get any comfort
cause he just wont
the only thing i get is disappointment and disappointment
so better i shut off everything
i know it wasnt a good thing
but i got no choice but a lot of compromised
and so on

i never ask for anything
but i got nothing at last also
seriously
got zero/

it's okay
i gonna do how i did last time
slowly and slowly