240417

i feel lost abit
i want to back on track
back on study mode
back on hard mode
i hate myself doing nothing
being unproductive is so not me
and i hate this feeling
not having self-confidence
feeling sucks , seriously
i gonna find the old me back
and no one can stop me from that
yes , it might be a lil bit late for that
but
at least i started now
ya i mean now
not gonna relaxing myself
pushing you please rou

as harder as u can

160427

my life is so messed up since the day u left me

130417

okay roughly

its been a month? i didnt really blog
the last one not counted because that's a mess

if u asked me , how have i been
i would say , mess drowning unmotivated
i wrote down 'to do list' in my planner
but i didn't done any of it
procrastinate game strong shit
i know i myself need a break to cool myself down
but i can't see there's a DAY to
tiredness killed
i was exhausted af
and i only realized after the 3hours napping
yes , nap
i feel like i was drowning
and no one is gonna save me
so i have to save myself
BUT idk how
i started to smile over talk
it was like my heart is hurting but i act like nothing
i used to pretend in a good way
but now i can't
keep silent is what i able to react
yea , everyone feels like i gonna get through all of those shits
i will , but not that fast
i not gonna show it out
no point

doimissu
yesido

but i know i just cant anymore
bye '
i see u soon
soon

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mess