01072017

So , This is my 3rd blog.

like my title ''2017'' , new title for my new life
new life is too harsh
but , hoping to accomplish my new goals in 2017

2016 just changed me a lot
i guess , that's probably why i am blogging now
not posting a photo with emotional captions
i know it might too late
but at least i realized and changed
people will only gossip and laugh how horrible my life is
i think this is the most greatest thing i committed to
is i don't talk anymore
no longer split out all my problem
no longer share my depression
neither in social media nor friends
not easy for me , but i gonna discipline myself
time to force myself
time to reinforce myself
time to embrace myself
through myself

perhaps it's a way of run away from the reality that
i am actually fear of being alone
so i rather be alone
so i won't feel alone at all
that's a lie
lonely so lonely

wanted to go UK so much
so i can start over everything
compel myself to do things i not brave enough to challenge
really really wish that i could make it

 wish me myself be able to maintain
this determination
no matter in whatever condition


not easy , but i need to i have to do it
on my own