u know how 'nothing to do' i am until i am blogging now
full of thoughts actually
gonna write it down
well, had a deep chat with my 16years bestfriend
it was really great to see him happy now
finally he move on and found her true love
i hope she's the one
he told me 'passionate'
love is passion , he said
and i saw that through his eyes
i was kind of envy his girl , cause i know he really fell in love with her
so hard so hard
and i was wondering , AM I LUCKY ENOUGH TO MEET THE ONE
he brought her everywhere , he did whatever he wants to make her happy
he wanted to see her all the time
damn , the girl is really lucky to meet him tho
okay , i was envying , i admit it
so
today is the 13th day we met
i know i fucked up , because i do care about u
more than u do , i wonder
i trust u , but i don't trust her
she is in your life , and i wonder how u get to move on when she is still in your life
i admit it , i am insecure , i always do
and u just don't explain , or maybe say something
to make me feel good
i know she can't be replace , of course she can't
u used to had her for the past 7 years
i understand u need time ?
but no one can assure u won't go back to her
even you yourself
asking me back' what if u are not the one i want , what if i am the one who leave'
no, not gonna be
because i know myself well
i don't get attached so easily
once i did , i fucked up
that's my weakness
u are my weakness now
i decided to give you some time
but i not sure whether it is right or wrong
like long said, either i became xiaosan or i get hurt in the end
it sounds harsh right
no happy ending
however
i must say that i believe u deep down insides my heart
don't ask me why , i just did
might so wrong
maybe i really hope us make it
maybe u honest with me, but keni banned this
maybe there's a trip for us
maybe i just trust u
it would be great if i get to know 'future'
i don't know
i just wanna u be mine
but take it slow , really take it slow
我不知道我们会走到哪里 但我真的希望到最后站在你旁边的人是我
u are my biggest surprise in 2017
this is the first time i wish what mummy said is bullshits
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